The Hopeless Rantings of the Hopeless Romantic

Um...

Fuck.

I wrote again! WOOT!
Finally...

Hey hey, guess what I was inspired by. xD

So, this conversation between Scott and I pretty much sums up the 2 things that I, at this moment, find humorous. I hope you do too.

Sixth Red Skie: Slice of cheese?
PumpkinJakk: aquefrigide
PumpkinJakk: O_O
Sixth Red Skie: I figured you'd say that.
PumpkinJakk: can't stop listening
Sixth Red Skie: *Hands you some 'Heart of England' cheese*
PumpkinJakk: yum
Sixth Red Skie: Very yum. Have you had it before?
PumpkinJakk: nope
Sixth Red Skie: I'd advise that you look into it. It's expensive, but delicious.
PumpkinJakk: will do
PumpkinJakk: cheese and crackers sounds delcious in general, let's see if we have any
PumpkinJakk: excuse me kind sir
Sixth Red Skie: xD
PumpkinJakk: ...there's mcdonalds double cheeseburger in the cheese drawer in my fridge O_O
PumpkinJakk: wtf?
PumpkinJakk: ...LJ
Sixth Red Skie: Ew.

Yeah... wtf?

This has nothing to do with school, I'm doing better right now than I have my whole high school career.
I repeat: This has nothing to do with school.
Thank you.

Now, moving on to more important matters.

I present to you, yam with features.

It's been 3 whole years since I've had even a thought of suicide, but as of this moment (or more accurately, a few moments ago when I was heating up my Chinese food from last night) I kinda just wanna die. I'm confused, I feel like I'm stumbling, and I don't feel like anything in my life is assured right now. Please forgive me if over the next couple days... weeks possibly... I'm a little off, or forget anything important. I mean, I forget most things anyway, but it may be more frequent.

Don't worry I'm not actually gonna do it, that'd just be stupid, but the fact that the idea even came up scares me.
I love you.

Ta ta for now,
The King of Halloween

"Let's get fucked up and die..
I'm speaking figuratively, of course..
Like the last time that I committed suicide.. social suicide..
Yeah, so I'm already dead on the inside,
But I can still pretend with my memories and photographs,
I have learned to love the lie.

I wanna know what it's like to be awkward and innocent, not belligerent.
I wanna know how it feels to be useful and pertinent and have common sense.. yeah
Let me in, let me in to the club, cuz I wanna belong,
And I need to get strong, and if memory serves,
I'm addicted to words and they're useless.

(In this department)
Let's get fucked up and die..
I'm riding hard on the last lines of every lie,
And the BMX bike of my life is about to explode,
I'm about to explode.
I'm a mess, I'm a wreck.
I am perfect, and I have learned to accept all my problems and short comings,
Cause I am so visceral, yet deeply inept.

I want to thank you for being a part of my forget-me-nots and marigolds..
And all the things that don't get old..
Is it legal to do this? I surely don't know.
It's the only way I have learned to express myself through other peoples' descriptions of life..
I'm afraid I'm alone and entirely useless...

(In this department)
Let's get fucked up and die..
For the last time with feeling
we'll try not to smile
As we cover our heads and drink heavily into the nights
That still shock and surprise.
I believe that I can, overcome this and beat everything in the end
But I choose to abuse for the time being,
maybe I'll win, but for now I've decided to die.

Sister soldier
You’ve been such a positive influence on my mental frame
If I could ever repay you,
I would, but I'm hard up for cash
And my memory lacks initiative.

God damn the liquor store's closed,
we were so close to scoring
it hurts, it destroys 'til it kills..
I am tired and hungry and totally useless."
- Motion City Soundtrack

OMG...
I just beat shadow of the colossus, and I kinda wanna cry. See, I'm the kind of person who gets connected to video game characters as I play the game, if there's a good story line. Oh dear lord I'm so depressed.


Yeah... it's fucked up.
In other news... eh there is no other news, nothing's going on...

Signing out,
The King of Halloween

A
• Are you available?: Nope
• What is your age?: 17
• What annoys you?: Stupidity

B
• Do you know anyone named Billy?: Nope, but I played a character named Billy in theater class today.
• When is your birthday?: November 1, 1989
• Who is your best friend?: Ben Fritzke and Sara Mirasola

C
• What's your favorite candy?: Toffifay
• Crush?: My girlfriend? ^^
• When was the last time you cried?: last weekend.

D
• Do you daydream?: absolutely
• What's your favorite kind of dog?: Huskies and Corgies
• What day of the week is it?: Thursday

E
• How do you like your eggs?: Scrambled with cheese, or not at all
• Have you ever been in the emergency room?: Yup.
• Ever pet an elephant?: Yup.

F
• Do you use fly swatters?: Nope.
• Have you ever used a foghorn?: No
• Is there a fan in your room?: Yeah, it makes nosies and it's annoying as hell

G
• Do you chew gum?: Yup
• Do you like gummy candies?: Yes'm
• Do you like gory movies?: Depends, is it a good movie?

H
• How are you?: Utterly confused, calm, wish my dad would stop trying to ruin my mood
• What's your height?: 5'9"
• What color is your hair?: Brown

I
• Whats your favorite ice cream?: Mint chocolate chip or Peanutbutter-chocolate
• Have you ever ice skated?: Naw, I'd be no good at it
• Ever been in an igloo?: Nope

J
• What's your favorite Jelly Bean?: Not big on jelly beans
• Have you ever heard a really hilarious joke?: Um... yeah... lame question
• Do you wear jewelry?: Yes

K
• Who do you want to kill?: No one
• Have you ever flown a kite?: Yep, I suck
• Do you think kangaroos are cute?: A bit

L
• Are you laidback?: Most of the time yeah
• Lions or Tigers?: Ligers?
• Do you like black licorice?: Ew no

M
• Favorite movie as a kid?: The Nightmare Before Christmas
• Ever shopped at Moosejaw?: Wha?
• Favorite store at the mall?: Hot Topic and EBX

N
• Do you have a nickname?: Squee, Gioeli, Vampiric Alex
• Whats your favorite number?: I've always like numbers with 7's
• Do you prefer night or day?: Night

O
• What's your one wish?: To release an official album with a band and tour
• Are you an only child?: Nope, 1 brother and 2 step siblings
• Do you like the color orange?: Yeah, it's abnoxious

P
• What are you most paranoid about?: People thinking I'm stupid or closed-minded
• Piercings?: Want some
• Do you know anyone named Penelope?: Penelope Pitstop?

Q
• Are you quick to judge people?: Nuh-uh
• Do you like Quaker Oats?: Yep
• Know anyone that makes quilts?: My Mom-mom

R
• Do you think you're always right?: Hell no
• Do you watch reality TV?: Scrubs
• Reason to cry?: Being extremely emotional

S
• Do you prefer sun or rain?: Absolutely rain
• Do you like snow?: Yeah
• Whats your favorite season?: Summer, no allergies and it's nice out
T
• time is it?: 8:45 pm
• What time did you wake up?: 6:00 am

U
• Can you ride a unicycle?: nope
• Do you know anyone with a unibrow?: don't think so
• uncles do you have?: 4? 5?

V
• What’s the worst vegetable?: Brussell sprouts
• Did you ever watch Veggie Tales?: No
• Ever considered being vegan?: Absolutely not
• What's your worst habit?: Not doing my homework
• Do u like water rides?: Yeah
• Ever been inside a windmill?: Don't think so

X
• Have you ever had an x-ray?: Yeah
• Ever used a Xerox machine?: Have one

Y
• Do you like the color yellow?: Not really
• What year were you born in?: 1989
• Do you yell when you're angry?: Try not to, don't like others yelling

Z
• Do you believe in the zodiac?: Somewhat
• What's your zodiac sign?: Scorpio
• When was the last time you went to the zoo?: With Tori and Morgan and some other random people

It makes me really depress, that more than anything we see in movies, read in books, watch on tv. More than any sad story that could possibly be in a world of fiction, away from our existence, the most depressing thing on earth can be exactly that, on earth, happening to the people that we love.

Have I really remained optimistic? Or is it a mask? Do I really believe that the world is good and I will live the life I'll love?

I damn hope so.

Dat's right folks, in all we made 345 cans of food last night, which is fuckin amazing. Thanks everyone who came, it was a great turn out even if we had a few less people for the last 3 bands. Ben and Jacob... 2 words.



Anyways, sadly me and Sara didn't get to do anything we planned.. which I kind of expected. But, eh, I'm going up to PA some days during X-mas break so it's all good. Sorry Morgan, no amazingly sexy pictures yet. I'll keep you updated. =P Oh, do you want the rest of the gauze ones? I think the rest of the people who read my LJ should see them don't you? ^^

Love,
The King of Halloween

Drumm for Kittie, on the very left, Mercedes Lander.
OMG That dress is gorgeous! O_O

I've been writing a whole lot lately. If you wanna check it out just scoot on over to alexandersteele.Deviantart.com

Also, I have an amazing new icon. ^__^ Only those of you who have read the latest explosm story will get it, but I just had to show it off.

I don't know what I did friday or saturday, whatever I did on those two days was probably irrelevant... except I got some manga work done and Missy wooed me for a change.

So sunday comes around, I go to church, do the lawn, mom picks me and Justin up for an early dinner, cool. Candice is there, we eat chinese. While we're eating, mom decided she finally needs to show us our surprise, mind you this is celebrating both our birthdays. She pulls out, 4 tickets, to see
AEROSMITH! God damn mother fucking Aerosmith!

This concert was omgwtfamazing, absolutely fantastic. I got to see them play Dream On and Living on the Edge, which are the ones I was really hoping for. Their guitarist? Jerry? He's totally OP. He played the guitar with his shirt... and did the behind the head thing, and had a double neck guitar at one point... oh and he played his guitar with his shirt. Wtf?

They're all really talented... like reeeeally talented. All of them. Dear god.
Dear god.
1 more concert under the king's belt my friends. Now I need to see MCR, pumpkins, stolen babies, birthday massacre, emilie autumn, and depeche mode. =P

PEACE AND LOVE! DREAM ON!
-The King of Halloween

Lina's twin sister Mina playing the violin. She's normally very hyper but becomes focused when playing. She's mute.

CAITLIN'S SECRET DEVIANTART ACCOUNT!

^^ 

So basically when dad and LeAnne left for the lake me and justin got 20 bucks for the night so we could get a pizza, so we order a large deep dish BBQ chicken pizza from Armand's. When it gets here we both eat a slice and I go "...hey, this had red peppers on it." "It's not supposed to?" "No it's not, didn't say so on the menu... hmm." "Dude, call them and tell them I'm allergic and I can't eat the pizza now, we could get a free pizza." "Dude that's a great idea!" So I do this, we now have 1 1/2 large deep dish pizzas in the fridge. WOOT!

Moral of the story, no matter how much my bro looks like a frat boy, no matter how obsessed he is with football, no matter how many polos he owns, he's a badass.

Oh and off topic, I miss Missy a lot. I really wish she was around, I feel all... hot? Yeah let's go with hot... *shudder*

+ more artistic genius from your king and queen of Halloween. <3

Anywho, first is the quest.
So I needed to get Ben's present, I've known my idea for a while but I had no time to retrieve it... till tonight. Dad get's home, I'm off to best buy. I get there, find both CDs I'm looking for, bring them to ben's at 9 o'clock.  He has them already. TT_TT I felt like a total dumbass! I'm SORRY Ben! If you didn't already have them, I would've said this.

"Yeah it may seem a little un-personal because it's just music, but due to the context and where we've been in life, I think it's pretty meaningful, no?"

So fuck it, go get yourself 2/5 of a videogame or something, enjoy your 20 bucks. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN!
I LOVE YOU-in-that-totally-heterosexual-brotherly-way-we-do.

Oh so, here's a new poem by me and a new sketch for the manga from missy. Genius! ^__^

Ms. Celestina Severino
My Own Green
By: Alex Gioeli

Extrenuous amounts of pleasure and pain
contracting into the sea of green
Maybe I should've stayed home today... day

Because I just can't get enough of it
no I just can't get enough
And every time it passes my mind
It makes my tongue quiver

Hell, I'm all out of arrows

Can't slay the beast, the beast is my friend
In this world we've so created
Make us laugh please, if you can

But one once said that the frog is oblivious
So let us not dive deeper
We would so miss it, the green
And so would our frog

Try again

If you tag on my blog ...
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a colour that i associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something i like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory about you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. You must post this on yours.

Yeah!

Who will win?!... probably the zombies.

YAY! I <3 her colorful outfits!

Preeeeeetty

This, is Lina Von Trouse. She's a character of the future hit web-manga "Gifted". This is the most recent draft of Missy's and it's amazing. Check it yo.

Tori, this is one of your little twin sisters, isn't she adorable?! ^___^